He came to my life again of my sudden. He texted me asking me how am i last two days. I was quite surprise because he texted me back after so long. To be honest,i wasnt happy bout it. At all!
He wants to meet me but i refused. I dont know. I dont wanna meet him. Im not ready for it. He ask me how was my relationship with my boyfriend and i said its complicated but the truth is i already broke up with my boyfriend but i dont wanna tell him because i know he will take that opportunity to get back with me. I was trying very hard to avoid him but if i didnt reply his msg,he will keep msg-ing me or call me up. Fucking Irritating! He ask me is there any chance for him to be with me again. Like totally no oke boy totally NO!! I cnt forget what he had done to me. He was the one who stop contacting me last 3 years and now he crawling to me back asking me to be with him again. Oh boy not that easy ok!! I cannot trust him anymore but the msg that he send to me make me like think twice about it. For example,"i promise i will take good care of u if we together" and "i promise i will treasure u" and etc.I dont know that makes me think twice bout him.I know i cannot trust him like totally trust him. But i need someones opinion at that point of time. What if he really change to be better person now? Not like the one that i use to know last time some sort a player i guess. what if? I was really frustrated of the msges that he send to me. He keep sending me like "i miss u" and "I love u" and so on. Doesnt it sounds like desperate? desperate of what also i dont know. I think desperate of love i guess. Omg! i dont know. He really wants to meet me but i dont know. And he keep asking me to be with him again. I told him that im so sick and tired of being in a relationship and im still young so i wanna enjoy my life of being single(thats the only reason that i can give.haha.)but he told me that its unfair for him. it seems that my reasons didnt work at all. Hello wake up uh boy! Who ask u to leave me last time now serve u right uh. I aint mia that u know last time. The girl that u can fool around. The girl that u can cheated on. Im not that kindda girl anymore oke boy!
Im seriously dont know what to do now. 40% of my heart says that i should give him a chance another 40% of my heart says that i shouln't give him a chance and another 20% of my heart says that im still confused. Boy please go away of my life boy! Im afraid if i fall for u again and thats not gonna happen to me. I think i should meet him for the last time. Yes i think i should! Oke i still need to decide! Boy oh boy,I hate u boy i really hate u!

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